Autumn

Another Day, Another Love Note

Greetings Princess Autumn,

Your pet hopes that You are having a wonderful day.  I wanted to take a few moments to write about how You have trained it to be your pet and why I love to be completely owned by You.  I, is not a proper term and I will refer to myself as “it”, just like it has been trained to do so.
it has been totally dehumanized and mentally conditioned to be Your pet.  You have trained it to have no limits but Yours and You have made it very clear that You have very few limits.  Simply, it is Your property and You get to use it as You wish.
You are the owner and it is Your property slave.  it has served You for many years and thru the constant mental conditioning it knows full well that there is no escaping Your ownership of it.  You use it for Your purposes and much like a puppet it responds to You wishes.
Your pet always craves to be used by You.  Even though it knows that it will be in pain.  it always thinks about how it can be more subservient to Your Dominance over it.
So then, how did it mentally and physically get to this point?   We have rules, the deed of ownership that make it very clear as to how it is to serve.  The deed of ownership is binding because it has agreed to the terms and has signed the document as well.  The rules are for how it plays the games for You.  The games are for Your entertainment.  They are sadistic and are meant to be played with no limits but Yours.
You have told it that You want full control and power over it.  Your pet loves this. You want that and it freely gives itself up to You so that You get to experience the fullest extent of Your power.  Each time is is mentally conditioned to fall deeper in to Your control and power.  The rules and deed make it very clear that You will use it with no limits but Yours and that it has no choices if You wish to use it.
That being said, it totally desires that You have all the power.  There are consequences should it not perform as expected.  Both the deed and rules state that You can use the blackmail option if it waivers or fails to entertain You.  The blackmail option is very real and You have told it that You will use it if You have to. it almost
found out how serious You were about using the blackmail option during a punishment session.  it was being punished for cumming without permission.  it had been edging Your cock for a long time as it watched Femdom Videos.  it edged too much and then it start to have an orgasm.  it tried to stop it but it could not. In fact it had a ruined orgasm, as it tried to stop it.  You have mentally conditioned it to tell You the truth so it did. it was to be punished and the punishment would be severe.  it knows this as well.  The blackmail option is a strong motivator for it performing the way it has been trained to perform.  Let’s just say that during the punishment it waivers.  You wanted Your nuts beaten, black and blue with the shoe. Then standing on the nuts with the shoes pushing down as if You were standing on Your nuts. You totally own the cock and nuts so they are Yours to do with as You desire. You then wanted it to grind the heel in to the nuts and push down hard.  it did all of this and  Your nuts were black and blue and swollen. The punishment did not end there however.  You told it to take the huge 70 ring sized cigar and light it.  Then You had it puff it up so that it had a 1 inch cherry on the cigar.  it was squirming as Your nuts were on display for You to see on webcam so it could not fake the punishment. Your pet knew what was coming and had some time to think about it.  Then, You told it to put out the cigar right on the middle of the nuts and grind it out. Your pet hesitated and was slow to respond.  When You saw that it was waivering You told it in a very strong tone that You would totally ruin it if that cigar was not put out on the nuts.
it shoved the cigar hard in to the nuts as soon as it heard the threat of being blackmailed. This is very powerful and the lesson also further conditioned it to know that You totally own it.  it could simply quit, but the rules and deed state that it can not quit.  The blackmail option enforces the rules so that you are in full control.
You have been training it to be an ashtray.  So it is an ashtray.  Again the blackmail option is powerful.
The games are intense and very sadistic as well.  Your nuts are abused and burned often. You enjoy this and it has to love or enjoy this as well.
We have played hard in the past as well.  Not just the games, but it remembers when You had it using only a pea sized amount of lube on the giant dildo.  it struggled hard to slide down that giant dildo.  You told it that the fuckhole was Yours and that You could use it as often as you wished.  it has been a very long time since it did this.
Your ashtray knows that You get to use whenever You wish for Your entertainment.  it loves performing for You because You really enjoy having full control. Also, You love to inflict pain on to it and You have the power to do so.  Your training makes it love this as well.  You have a sadistic side and Your ashtray has  very strong masochistic tendencies as well.  A perfect match for Your ashtray.
You are a very busy Yourdesires Dominant, having lots of call.  This is because You are also a great person as well.  it plays the games and suffers often for Your entertainment.  Your nuts look more like moon balls than a normal looking pair of nuts.  You have told it that if you wish the nuts to be totally destroyed then they will be.  it was squirming as  You told it that You have not decided yet if they would be totally destroyed.
They are almost always in pain and abused.  it loves this because You enjoy having Your nuts abused all the time.
You never have to yell and scream.  You are self confident and exercise Your control over it without having to think about what Your pet thinks.  That is total control. This is also what Your pet loves.  Your entertainment and getting to use it as You wish is much more important to Your ashtray then how much it is suffering in pain for You.
Your pet also loves that You are in charge of its health as well.  You never use Your pet if it is feeling ill or is very tired.  Your also intellegent, creative and kind as well.  Your pet feels very secure and safe while being used by You.
 it knows that it will be abused and even damaged while it plays the games, but at the same time You have trained
it to play as severe as You wish.
Princess Autumn, it could go on and on about why it loves to serve You.  There are just too many examples to write about in one email.  So, the main reason that it loves to serve You is that You love to have total control and power.  Your pet loves to give You total control and power over it.  You use it as You wish and as often as
You wish. it feels totally owned and loves it.  it loves thinking about You all of the time.  it loves the mental conditioning.  it also loves the threat of being blackmailed. Speaking of the blackmail option.  it also loves the fact that blackmail isn’t all about taking money for You.  Blackmail is about ensuring that you have all the power.
Your pet once asked if You felt like You totally owned it and if this was real.  You told it that this was very real for You. so yes, Your ashtray is Your property. it is totally screwed as there is no escape nor is there an out.  But it loves this as well.
Just writing this email is making it want to be abused and used.  What can Your ashtray say.  it loves being Your slave.
Have a great day,
ashtray
Autumn

Summer Sissy Love Notes

I got this email today and thought it would serve as some reminders to all
of you sissy and subbie little sluts.
1). Just because you think it’s a simple hello doesn’t mean I can’t or
won’t twist your words into a command for my entertainment.
2). Just because I’m not here doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be thinking of me
or serving me.
3). To me, training is a group effort which requires utilizing all of the
special skills my fellow YD Ladies have to offer.

“On Friday i made the mistake of saying HI to Mistress Autumn and
mentioned that i have had so little time lately.

Explaining that my weekends have been filled lately with buttoning down
things for winter,
except when i spend Sunday mornings sitting, grading papers here at my desk.

Somehow (*whine*) She heard it as
“slut is home alone and at his desk so is to be wearing something slutty
and tight”

*gulp*

And that “slut has to tell people because She was gone for the weekend.
*whine**

Now i am wearing this while i grade papers.
Stripey panties, ring (still from Friday night) at the base of my clitty
and ovies, knee hi’s, bra and tight shirt, stretch pants.

Thank You

orbi

Your slut”

Autumn

Two Loads For One

There is one thing I really enjoy that doesn’t happen as much as I like it to. The other night I was reminded of this special event. I have a very awesome client who basically does whatever I ask him to. Sometimes I’m just in the mood for a jerk off boy and he’s perfect (even though he did put a cigar holder up his ass). Not only did he entertain me just how I needed but the sweet little slut came twice in a pretty short amount of time. I loved it! I wish every guy would give me two loads of jizz per call. It usually means I have to be the sexiest I can be, but I’m totally willing to put forth the extra effort. How many times do you think I can make you cum?

Autumn

Another Sweet Note

Sometimes one of my darlings sends me a note that is just so sweet I
couldn’t possibly not share it. Do you see what you’ve been missing?

Dearest Autumn,

There is something especially wicked about what you have done with me in
the past forcing me to the edge over-and-over with that deliciously sexy
and teasing voice. All the while coaxing me on almost making it feel as
though it truly is something I desire this denial versus release. This
fucks with my head and yet in some crazy way it makes me want to please
and obey because all the while this is what you so sincerely tell me to
do. That the focus should be on you and not my coming. So I am taken
down ever lower and lower still.

You would abruptly leave me there oftentimes hanging on the edge and I
would hear, “Bye pet”. My mind would be left swirling trying to grasp
what just happened not knowing how to make sense of it all.

Well my love last night after far too long my Goddess Haylee called you
up. And pet was already edging and the mercy of you both. I could hear
your soft voices chatting about me and talking about how I was in need of
this training and discipline because of my naughtiness of late.

In seconds I was floating in subspace forced to listen to you and Goddess
Haylee’s teasing banter. Goddess Haylee laughed at my writhing as she
described it to you and then she requested that you take me there to the
edge where in reality I already was. You took me there the first time and
I was able to hang on so frustratingly difficult as it was. But then came
the second edging no long after and I started to think there wasn’t much
possibly of hanging back. Amazingly, I was able to endure though I was
brought so thoroughly low groveling and writhing like a little fuck bitch.

Upon the third edging going into it I knew I was ruined! The both of you
giggling saying perhaps we should milk that cum out of his cock. I found
myself on the edge instantly under the softness and control of your voice
Autumn and I was forced to ruin my orgasm. There was absolutely nothing
left within me to do otherwise.

The two of you took me down. Goddess Haylee thanked you saying how
wonderful she thought our time together was and the instant she hung up
she turned to me saying disdainfully, “I told you earlier you wouldn’t
last 15 minutes!”. Then she chided, “I hope you enjoyed your call”.

I scrambled grabbing my laptop to tell you just how thankful I was for
your taking the time to let us call you telling you how brilliant you were
and how we so looked forward to our next call together. All before
signing off for the evening. Your pet felt like weeping before going off
to sleep due to the intensity of the paces he had been put through.

Thank you again Autumn for playing with Goddess Haylee and I and
participating in my training and discipline helping guide us to where your
pet needs to be so low at your perfect feet.

Your broken lowly pet

Autumn

I Feel So Loved

Even though I deliver such pain the pain sluts are always so thankful. I
got this sweet note after leaving such sweet marks.
I really enjoy leaving marks and bruises and evidence of my work. That
enjoyment must show through to all of my lovely sluts (pain and otherwise)

“Dear Princess Autumn,

What a fantastic day i had squirming around pretending to pay attention in
class as my mind remembered the way You used and bruised me over and over
yesterday. i was delighted when the tight jeans i wore constantly reminded
me of how sweet You were to spend so much time making sure that wonderful
feeling would last for several days. i woke up early and immediately began
poking around, because right now Princess Autumn, You are the first thing
i like to think about each morning. i looking forward to going to the gym
tomorrow because that is always a special treat after playing with You. It
seems i stay erotically charged by these pleasurable experiences You give
me and i can hardly contain my excitement as i try to patiently await our
next appointment. You really seem to enjoy what You do and You make me so
happy.

Thank You,

Your Grateful Painslut”

Autumn

Another Sweet Note

I got this sweet little love note from a little pet who was begging to be
let back into my flock. I think he knows that his place has always been
and will always be at my feet. I might carry the keys to his device right
around my neck.

“Princess Autumn,

Thank You so much for permitting me back under Your perfect hand for
training. i shall do exactly as You require of me sending the keys
priority mail right away so W/we can begin to lay the ground rules per
Your instruction.

Your pet was so not expecting this Autumn…the one thing i feared most
was enduring the intensity of sustained long-term chastity and yet You
force me to remain locked down turning over the keys to my device. You
know i am under Your spell and too weak to do anything less than obey!

So i shall…i shall do as You require of Your pet for my life is no
longer my own. i live now to please You and serve You and You alone and i
am only permitted release when You say.

Your pet is so entranced with the sound of Your voice in his ear…so
perfectly calm, smooth, alluring and hypnotizing…so steady and
controlling. All is lost, given up, surrendered, handed over when under
it. i shall faithfully and obediently do as You require of me now my
beloved Autumn.

Thank You,

Your lowly humbled chaste pet”