Dear Autumn –

Thank You so much for talking today. It feels so nice to talk with You.

Which is something we’ve been doing for awhile. It must be years now. It feels to me that there are a lot of reasons i love talking with You so much. You have a tremendous strength and power, which i felt early on, and of course for me that’s very appealing since i long to be submissive to someone who is also considerate, intuitive, and empathic. And, of course, strong. i‘m strong in ways also, but it’s different. You’re powerful. You see things, not just here and now in the moment but in more far-ranging terms. Not like You imagine Yourself taking over the world, though I guess You might since we’ve never really talked about that (and if You did I’d wish You all the luck and we’d all be better off), but that You’re far sighted: You see things not only for what they are at a particular, fleeting moment in time but what they are on a more far-sighted level. It may be that at times i have glimmers of that, but I tend to be more micro-oriented in my thinking. You’re more clear-minded. And disciplined. i envy those things, and I admire that at times You choose to share those things with me.

Eeek. That’s a lot. i m sorry. i shouldn’t babble on like that. Years ago, i met a woman who was dominant in many ways. Entitled. Selfish. To me, annoying. She was bombastic and arrogant and annoying where You are polite and gracious and helpful.

It’s much easier for me to respond to You. With her, i simply shut down and left. With You, it is much more comfortable. Thank You. i feel i‘m lucky to know You.

xoxoxoxo

B is for Blue Balls: Everyone knows that I *love* cum. I love everything about it. When I say “everything” I’m including making you hold it in your balls. It is so sexy to get a man rock hard (by any means necessary) and making him stay that way. Of course, I like to play the cock and the balls. I like to stroke and caress and spank, and lick and suck and all of those other goodies. I also like to do all of those things without a release of white, sticky cum. I love watching the cock get so hard that it twitches with even the tiniest touch. I love seeing the head get bright purple. I love seeing the balls get tight and tense just waiting to expel that liquid. I love watching the look on a gentleman’s face change from pleasure to agony with each stroke and each firm “No! Not yet!” that comes out of my mouth. And I especially love the sounds of panting and whimpering and then the begging. The sound of a grown man begging get my nipples so hard and gets my pussy so wet. I get so turned on that my little cunt needs some relief. Since I’m the one in charge, I’ll almost always opt to let you watch me finger myself to orgasm. It’s very important that you keep stroking during my solo adventure. That’s what gets me so hot. If you can’t control yourself and end up squirting I hope you are prepared to take the consequences.